i need to hype myself up
I WANT CEREAL
I WILL GET IT
EVEN THOUGH I AM SCARED
HERE WE GO
i need to hype myself up
he wasnt down there tonight! i got my cereal and a glass of milk for after i eat the peanut butter, and back in my room before my heart came out of my chest!!!!
it turns out that i have not become less scared i had just gotten better at lying to myself about it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
and apparently the lying chip has been broken & misplaced 
@wenotfreeyet surprised to hear this, from my perspective you have one of the most beautifully sensitive and enriching feeds on here and i love all the quotes and poems and resources, but also i don't mean to dismiss your feelings just letting you know you don't seem broken, you seem to be constantly healing
@dark_soil wow! thats really lovely and comforting, actually, thank you so much
i really do appreciate the kindness yall extend to me / like i *know* this(whatever ive been in and whatever im in now) is not normal or healthy but i like dont believe it ya know
the kindness helps