the thing is i dont want to work but i do want my autonomy you feel me
or rather, when beyoncé sang, "and keep your money, i got my own" illustrating that she is able to start a new life without the people who mistreat her, *that*! thats the shit i want
edit: and i dont know how, but i will get this. gotta speak it to truth and shit you know
and this isnt even to say that things are terrible here. like i have my own room and i get time to myself and like there is a lot of good here. but i am also always in the trauma cycle and when things are good im bracing my body for the inevitable downswing and i just. wish i could know a life where i dont do that. where i close my door and dont wait for invasion. or violence.
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